Sharke Cage

Bye Blogger

2009-02-16T21:32:00.003+08:00

Yup! moved to wordpress.

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Okay Bye!

I could live on loving you - Trademark

2009-02-11T12:11:00.009+08:00

ok..

for the first time, i cant find a song on the net :(

and this song, seems so familliar. though i cant remember i heard it before.

so, anybody got this song?

can send me?

please please please

Thanks :)

PS: my tagboard seems dead

I'm a caveman with a laptop

2009-02-10T23:51:00.003+08:00

I know I know.. I been missing.

actually, been at home most of the time. so lazy.

my job like.

wake up

eat

play com

sleep

play com

eat

sleep

play com

eat

sleep

so damn no life can!!

i know i know.

oh well..

ok..

tmr, second interview. SGH this time. the caveman look got to go away. aww..

oh well. recession. so must find a job. anyway since like above no life already. might as well get a job.

but hopefully cgh call soon to accept me.

hahs. soo troublesome.

and and, i also need to get rid of my panda eyes.

god knows why i got them now when i dont even have them during prcp.

Day 7 of slacking at home

2009-02-07T01:30:00.005+08:00

ok.. day 7.

I think today my first day of really stay at home.

hmm.. not bad.

Busying myself with reading manga. Hahas. Still long way to go.

Oh well.. I think I'll just spend my time reading them.

shit.

Time is running out and I really got no idea on how to start.

Day 6 of slacking at home

2009-02-06T02:17:00.002+08:00

DAY 6! DAY 6! DAY 6!

this morning went for cgh interview. guess they do ask weird question.

then went home. online awhile. and someone just piss me off big time. sort of know this going to happen but it just still piss me off la.

soo.. i went to have a nice nap after which i woke up and do some running. feels so so so so much better.

and ya, i realise my body frame is getting narrower. shit. most of shirt now look so big!

how seh..

Day 5 of slacking at home

2009-02-04T22:20:00.002+08:00

Okay.. Day 5.

i was not at home the whole afternoon. Went to NUH to visit my granduncle who is recovering from AMI.

Before that something funny happen. Went to eat lunch with parents and brothers. Then my mom have a bad stomachache. So, off to NTU to send my bro to school and since my mom having a bad stomachache, visit the toilet there.

and now, she can says, "NTU? Oh.. I've been there. That's where I shit."

it's so funny can.

Anyway, cgh called me for interview tomorrow.

So for day 6, I'll be in cgh early in the morning.

hoho.. wish me luck.

Day 4 of slacking at home

2009-02-04T01:08:00.002+08:00

Okay. I know.I miss day 3.

Hahs.

Cause I was out with sa and fatnah. So cant consider slacking at home right?

Then this morning went for medical checkup. Those people, are just plain attitude can. Dont know say dont know la. Still want to act smart. Smart my ass la..

And once I reach home, sleep till evening. Shiok! Woo..

ok la.. must get ready for day 5. Hahs. Like so exciting like that eh.

Slacking at home that is.

Gosh. I need a life.

Seriously, it's really super irritating when people talk about things halfway.

Day 2 of slacking at home

2009-02-01T21:38:00.001+08:00

I'm planning of something big this month. Dont know will work out or not.

Hmm..

We shall see about it.

Let fate decide (:

Mars!!

2009-01-31T20:12:00.002+08:00

One day, just one day, I will find a home in mars.

map of mars

so cool right??

Some updates

2009-01-31T12:34:00.003+08:00

Finally finished PRCP.

Oh well.. pretty enjoyable 3 months.

Catch up with some people yesterday. They seems fine. I guess..

Then going home time something bad happen to froggie..

Froggie,

sorry for not being able to help you.

sorry for sitting down doing nothing at all.

sorry for not being dependable.

idk. i was just stunned and confused on how to help you i guess..

ohh well..

currently,

slacking at home like nobody business. MUST find a job.

waiting and hopefully CGH call me for interview soon.

hoho!! this is so irritating.

im feeling so damn bored already.

like very super bored.

crap.

When the sun is falling

2009-01-27T16:54:00.005+08:00

To do things that I know I'll never succeed or to do them so that at least I know I tried?

Sigh..

Yiruma making me upset and groggy.

Sick!

2009-01-17T21:40:00.003+08:00

I'm falling sick on my long day off.. this is soo bloody irritating.

on a lighter note,

last 2 weeks of prcp. finishing soon. now the super big problem.

wad should i do feb onwards?

hmm.. about time to start looking for a job

Happy New Year!!

2009-01-07T18:45:00.003+08:00

Seems like I'm 7 days late for the new year.

but oh well, better late then never.

so..

2008. how was it?

Life

So far so good. In fact very good. Been enjoying this carefree life. Been a devil once a while doing not so good things but then again, I think I'm an angel most of the time. I hope.

Love

I'm still single and available and still innocent and looking cute and good and not forgetting decent.I'm not self praising but even the cleaning auntie say I cute. That's what she really says.

No kid.

Much said, once a while, looking at girls with wide big smile could really bright up someone's day. Especially mine.

Health

No comments

School

Last year of poly. Graduating in a few months time. Hopefully. Definitely will miss NR0629 as times goes by. We've gone through many great challenges and difficulties. Especially the death of our beloved leader, RX. I believed all of us do miss him. A whole lot. Really whole lot. If not, at least I do.

Finance

My networth this year increase. Shiok! Maybe due to the "Single's Welfare" as what Samuel love to say.

Attachment

Currently, I'm having PRCP at CGH. Learning alot. Having fun. And, they're not weirdos afterall except for one or two. My bad.

So for 2009,

My To Do List:

1)Graduate with a Diploma in Nursing on time.

2)Serve my NS obligations.

3)Earn some money and more money and fill up my coin box with coins.

4)Hold a birthday party somewhere. I've always wanted to hold one but either on attachment or on holiday overseas. So this year, I dont care. Must hold one.

5)KIV learn driving if i could afford.

6)KIV learn piano - I dont know why but I've always wanted to learn piano. But then, either no time or no money.

Hopefully will be a good year. With many many good comings. Lesser bad comings please.

stupid morning

2008-12-25T01:51:00.003+08:00

Today, I successfully declare that I have the knn worst morning of the posting.

1)I got complain for a dressing i did not do.

2)I waited 45 min at the inpatient pharmacy.

3)I got scolding by sis cause a patient never press call bell even though I told him to press it and even demonstrate how to press. He knn walk out to the door and "hello, hello" then sis got worried and put the blame on me.

Oh well, it's okay. It's xmas.

Fighting with my inner self

2008-12-23T21:52:00.002+08:00

I hate this! I dont know. I just hate this!

I dont know what going happen but this is super irritating.

I need to focus. really focus.

but can I? I dont know.

Why this kind of thing keep happening?

Why now?

This is irritating.

Now is not a good time for it. really.

I still got a long way to go.

I dont want the same thing to happen again.

Like how it happen 2 years ago.

hais..

Hi there!

2008-12-11T09:56:00.002+08:00

5th week already!! going 6th!!

halfway done.

I miss school. literally.

but attachment not that boring though. reasonably interesting.

xmas coming. new year coming. cny coming.

i wan go shopping.. find me some time!!

Can't sleep

2008-11-21T09:57:00.003+08:00

I dont know. Woke up from a pretty bad dream. In fact, it was scary. Like really scary.

Gosh..

aren't I'm a bit too old to get nightmares?

PM shift today.

AM tomorrow.

My CI just successfully screwed up most of my plans.

That's lovely. Like really great.

Thanks!

So far, PRCP have been pretty okay.

Manageable but I feel like doing more. In fact, I know I must do more then just this.

Sometimes appear so lost in dont know what to do cause everything usually settles pretty fast.

GOSH!

I hate attachments.

Grumpy old me

2008-11-13T00:22:00.003+08:00

This part of my life, I called "fucking tired"

I'm so not used to this kind of thing. I'm feeling damn suckily tired which leads me in being grumpy. and the stupid big bad headache just got it worst.

and then everything all got worst.

I am seriously getting irritated by alot of stuff..

Hais..

PRCP

2008-11-11T00:09:00.007+08:00

im stuck with a bunch of weirdos from other lecture halls.

ok.. they not that weird la. maybe im weird.

maybe it's first day.

maybe it's them.

maybe it's me.

who cares, i got 12 more weeks to go. might as well be weird as well.

weirdness is contagious.

guys.. if u happen to see this. dont kill me okay. im already so nice to sacrificed my soul to be the leader. im nice rite? u all love me rite?

but the CI is nice.

and I dont know why everywhere I go today I keep bumping into ppl I know be it SN or student nurse or wad.

and I didnt know rachel is workin at that ward. and it's super weird cause she remember seeing me but cant recall..

im so sad can we used to work tgtr 2 years ago. the most relax posting in my whole entire nursing life and still can get good grades.

thats all for today.

im sian

bye

Alone

2008-11-08T14:12:00.008+08:00

Been having this sucky feelin ever since i woke up yest. The suckiest part is i donno wad this sucky feeling all about. It's getting the life out of me.

I dont know.

I really dont know.

Really really dont know.

It's making me upset. Really bad.

I feel so lonely..

really lonely..

I am most guys

2008-11-02T01:26:00.002+08:00

Been thinkin abit..

Feel like my life is abit too normal and plain. Like most people,

I scrap through pri sch.

Then come sec sch which I also scrap through.

Afterwhich comes the poly life where I get a little serious but never serious enough.

Then comes the ns which going to waste 2 years of my life.

Then try to build up my career.

Find a girl and get married.

Have kids

Stable income, stable family but just enough or maybe never enough to have more.

Kids grows up, kids leave home and I retire.

Spend the rest of my days taking care of grandchildren

Waiting to die..

Will this be like my life story? Do I want it to be this way? I dont know..

So far, my life been as plan this way.

Can I make a difference? Or am I most people?

Levonogestrel (: (: (:

2008-10-28T21:53:00.008+08:00

Something funny happen.

A buddy of mine get this for his gf.

AKA the morning after pills

ok.. im trying not to laugh at his plight. Though i think last time in sch they did mention about this but this is to funny la.. Durex ultrathin condom breaks easily. or maybe he bang too hard?

For those really curious about what it is.

and the best part is, you need a Dr presciption.

and it will be super funny trying to ask the dr a presription for it.

but then again, isnt it better for him to get it instead of goin home one day telling your mom

"mom, my gf pregnant. you gonna have a grandson"

ok la.. enough of poking fun of him.

but then again, if not for him, we wont learn smth important.

nope, not about the pills.

The moral of the story is, don't use ultrathin condom. :) :) :)

Pre- PRCP

2008-10-22T00:33:00.004+08:00

PRCP schedule is out!! I'm goin ortho ward. CRAP. Thats wad I get for cursing the ortho surgeon eh..

Oh well..

nevermind. 3 months only. Might as well get it done and over with.

But then again, going to learn as much as possible as this guy wants to be a future ED train nurse and fractures and dislocation and what not is pretty much common in ED also..

Hmm.. shall see about it.

It's the holidays!!

2008-10-20T01:44:00.003+08:00

Finally finished OT and ED posting.. Having 3 weeks break.

My view of this 2 places:

OT can get boring at times when the operations get a tiny bit too long. Not my kind of place to like stand arnd and do nothing. Thought of getting into OT in the future but to think again, neh..

ED can get stressful at time but it's damn fun can.. People do come to ED for funny reasons. From hair loss to RTA to others. Most memorable is when we actually cut an authentic Man U shirt cause the shirt is in the way. And the patient reaction when we cut, " Fuck!" with a disappointing face. HAHAHA!! Definitely will love to try going there again. We shall see about it.

Ok! now 3 weeks break and I've seriously got no idea what to do. Maybe I get ready for PRCP. Learn a stuff or two. Someone inspired me to learn to read basic ECGs. Maybe I do that. Hmm..

Okay!!

Who's free?? You?

ED is so fun that I cant wait for more =)

2008-10-13T20:38:00.001+08:00

Compared to OT last week is amazingly damn boring, I really enjoyed my ED.. and I've not even step into the resus room yet!!

woohoo!! cant wait for more!!

Life is one big fuck

2008-09-29T02:09:00.004+08:00

It's so early now and I dont know whether I want to like sleep or just stay awake. Go to wake up at 4.30 anyway to eat. 2 hours only..

This past few days, been busy resting at home watching tv. Hais.. I need to get a life. But then again, I need the rest. Might as well but I'm turning into a couch potato. Gosh..

Let me see what I did during my 1st week of holidays..

Monday- Out shoppin lookin for bdae gift

Tuesday- Sleeping at home

Wednesday- Chill with the guys and went see lantern @ chinese garden with sharon!!

Thursday- Sleeping at home

Friday- Sleeping at home

Saturday- Board games with Matt, Ying wen and Andy

Sunday- Shopping for Hari Raya with mum

As we can see here, I lead a lifeless life. yea.. I spend like 3 days doing nothing productive at all..

...

see told u I got no life..

but who cares..

Hais..

I want to meet meowmeow again.

I want to pitch a tent in a beach and just enjoy the night breeze there with a wonderful company.

I want to hit the gym again. I feeling so weak now.

I want to buy the puzzle I saw the other day and complete it.

Are they too much to ask for??

But I cant seems to do them. Cause of one reason or another.

Crapss!! ARGH! Feeling so weirdy weird now.

I want to whine. So many things kept inside.

Will you be my listening ear?

Today TNP: SG blogger sex scandal

2008-09-26T00:29:00.007+08:00

If you don't wish to read regarding my comments or feel offended on the topic on sex, don't read further. Thanks :)

Who got read?? Seen the vid??

Find the gal damn stupid lo.. Who ask her post her pic and vid on the net.

Oh wait! Who ask her to film them in the first place.

She became another Tammy. But I think Tammy still better leh.. This one, hais.. get a better vid cam please. LOLs

(For those unaware, Tammy is that NYP gal. Attain stardom 3 years ago I think)

I think her future gone liao. At least Tammy her bf still wan her. This one, kena backstab by bf. Somemore bf still make money frm selling blog link.

She think make police report got use meh? Good luck to her lo.. Sg police very efficient one.

And for those who haven't see the vid, dont bother la. Not nice one.

Really, later your yesterday dinner come out. But if you still wan, msn me. If I happy I give la..

Ohh wait..

I'm not encouraging porn. Porn is EVIL!!

yea rite..

New blogskin!!

2008-09-25T16:07:00.001+08:00

I'm playing arnd with it at the moment.. LOLS

If you guys find anything wrong with it, do comment on the chat box..

Thank You (:

So it's my fault la?? nbcb..

2008-09-21T22:26:00.001+08:00

I hate HSE posting and I'm developing a fever with severe headache again!!

2008-09-18T23:07:00.001+08:00

The weekends are over??

2008-09-14T20:49:00.001+08:00

Kns.. I wasted my weekends sleeping all thanks to the stupid flu. Still have case study to chiong finish. I'm so screwed!!

$36 for standard medications???

2008-09-07T23:28:00.001+08:00

kns..

im broke now

Yawnzz~~

2008-09-01T04:56:00.005+08:00

I'm awake at this hour. Thinking..

Attachment start today at 8. Thats in 3 hours time.
I'm so sleepy. I knew if I put my head down, I'll sure knockout.

Good luck to me today. Still sick. Hope the CI is nice.

I'm tired. Really tired. Very tired. But I just, waited. Hoping for that little small light to bright up. No idea why, but I was worried. Just worried. How I tempted to say hi but I didn't cause i knew that it will just be a one sided convo. Ohh well..

Bye

Sharke is half-dead

2008-08-30T02:24:00.004+08:00

I'm sick.. my cough like gotten worst. In fact, my body feel warm.

Maybe it's the sedentary lifestyle
Maybe it's the oily fried food
Maybe it's the weather
Maybe it's the smoke
Maybe of those stuff that making me upset

so,
I shall live a healthier lifestyle
I shall avoid fries and nuggets for now. Eat more porridge =(
I shall stay indoor for the time being
I shall smile more

and of course, not forgetting to eat my medications

hais..

Sometimes I feel I'm such a crybaby.. is it so difficult to make me smile?
Sometimes I feel so tired being nice.. I just ended up getting hurt at the end of the day.
Am i asking for too much??

You asked me to do it again. I dont know whether I should. Would the same thing happen again? and I get irritated and upset all over again?

Im a goner

Sharke talks

2008-08-27T23:07:00.003+08:00

Outer Sharke: I don't give a damn la..

Inner Sharke: Hais.. me is upset.. =(

=(

2008-08-27T00:13:00.004+08:00

Why is fate so evil to me?? Did I do anything wrong??

It's not funny anymore..

Hais.. Life sucks

I want go this thing!!

2008-08-25T01:36:00.006+08:00

http://www.2008lanternfestival.com.sg/

But attachment is starting soon unless I go on a weekend :(

and it's stupid to go alone..

Hais..

No more EXAMS! BYE BYE NR0629 :(

2008-08-21T17:56:00.005+08:00

Today, last day of exam. Means might be the last time i see some of them till graduation.

Kind of sad but oh well. Every good thing must come to an end. And trust me, this 2 and half years been the best of my life so far..

Had a chat with Azahar in the canteen.
He was like, "Wah! finally u alone ah? it feel so weird."
Ok la.. my bad for neglecting him.
HAHA.. sounds like i betrayed my gay partner sia.. but I not gay. I straight.
Really..
Dont believe take ruler check

Well we were chattin about alot of stuff la..
From his ang moh gal then give him some of my thoughts la..

Then chat chat chat
Then suddenly I got into the picture.
Can't seems to like hide anything from him.
But I must agree with him with this..

Being the youngest guy in class, always kena bully by him and Rx,

Rx must have told god, "There that guy.. yaya that guy. He was the one who laugh at me that time. Pay back. Pay back. His turn.."

Funny la.. Thought only me who thinks that it might have been Rx work sabotaging me but for him to bring it up just now, confirm that it's not only me who thought that way la.

And bet he's laughing at me now lo.. So much to ask him.

Rx ah.. come visit me leh.. I told you to visit the gals first but doesnt mean u can skip me wad. Walao.. Dont bias leh.

1 week holiday. waiting for 1st sept. Dont know wad to do for this 1 week.
Hmm..

Last Paper!

2008-08-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

If I don't fail any paper and if everything ends well, shall have my last paper on 21st Aug at 12 noon.

Shall not take anymore paper here unless I decide to take advance dip..

BYE NYP!! MAY I NOT COMEBACK AGAIN FOR LECTURES OR EXAMS!!

ohh wait.. I'm celebrating too fast. Haven't take the paper yet :P

Mentally abusing myself..

2008-08-17T11:42:00.005+08:00

Somewhere between our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights and all our jokes, I fell ...

I just dont want to admit it. I know I can't.
FUCK

Thanks for coming.. (:

2008-08-12T07:48:00.003+08:00

I don't know whether I should blog about this.. Oh well, maybe I should

Last night, Baox send me some photo we took the other day. Found smth weird about 2 of the photos. Shall not mention which one.

That idiot.. Never failed to give me a good scare..

He've always been the one taking photos and making collages. Didn't really took much of yours together.

Glad that you came the other day. I miss you. Really badly..

T.T

Last day of school..

2008-08-09T17:13:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, was our final day at NYP. Next sem onwards all attachment so wont be going to school..

It's been a pretty fruitful poly life with many ups and little down. I still remember last time Mr Yeo my sec sch PE teacher told us, "enjoy your sec sch life cause you wont find anything this close and nice anymore."

I must strongly disagree.. Poly life is soo soo much more fun then sec sch life. Me and Linda was like.. "aiya.. sec sch 1 year enough la.. poly must have 5 years or more"

As you guys know, being living in the west and NYP so far away, when I first been there, I was totally lost. Always being with guys in sec sch, having shaheera as the only person I know there, I felt totally lost being there..

Especially the first few weeks, I felt totally uncomfortable in school. Not used to it all that.
Now, I love going to school. I dont want to leave..

Going to miss all those people there..

Going to miss..

Watching gals with aza while drinking a cup of teh

trying to understand wad TN and BJ are saying..

Shana looking at me while saying "Bye girls"

Pohling high pitch scream..

Belinda nag at me and askin me where's my ppt slides..

Looking at Mel having her dose of chilli tapioca

Saying "Hi Valerie" even though she's with me for hours..

Whining to Linda everytime in the train about everything..

Making fun of Baox small eyes..

Sharing pirated stuff with Rx..

Giving Ashley the weird look everytime she says she's fat. Ashley ahh.. you're not fat. You're pretty la.. cause I says so..

Calling yadanar banana

Waking rafi up when he starting to snore in clinical..

Bullying aisha everytime I see her.. Aisha, where's my cookie??

People going up to me and Fi asking, "are both of you siblings?? No? Then why both of you look alike??"

Looking at hid go crazy..

Having Tami as my mum in school..

Fighting alongside Adelia for our rights when our subgrp get too stress

Gaying with John when we in our gay mood

Sigh.. all this will just remain as memories..

NR0629.. I love you all.. Keep in contact ok? If you guys miss me, do ring me up

Love
Sharke

Sigh..

2008-08-07T21:17:00.001+08:00

Last week of school

2008-08-04T01:28:00.003+08:00

5 days left.. before everything will just be stored as memories.

I'm not forever pms-ing ok?

2008-08-01T21:22:00.003+08:00

ok..
Meifen complain that i been blogging too much unhappy stuff, so today, shall write happy stuff..

After 3 years walking pass that banner, few months of "when want to go?" we finally went to IKAN IKAN at grassroot club.

Went with baox, linda and val. OK la.. the food just ok. not really as nice as it looks but neither is it that lousy.

then since I was free, went to amk hub to get linda's wedgy with val..
phew.. it was stressful. very stressful.
"should I buy?"
"should i get it?"
"should i wait for discount?"
"is it too big?"
"nice not?"

and few other countless questions. After that, walk arnd abit.. Tried to tempt val but then failed. Too bad..

Anyway, alot of ppl been saying me and fi look so much alike. Really meh? I was curious so I showed my mum the pic i took with her yesterday.

Her response was like..

"Wow! Maybe that's what you'll look like if you were born a gal like you suppose to." Then she start asking 1001 questions. SHIT. That's why curiosity kills the cat. In this case, me.

ok la.. going get smth to eat before sleeping..
lately my throat been feeling very very dry. and it got worst with smelling all the burnings.

So, I must take care!
Bye!

Breaking Down

2008-07-30T16:26:00.003+08:00

Been a long time i felt like this, in fact, never feel like this before.

I am scared.. Very scared.

Trying to appear strong but then, my eyes feel watery.

So many things, So little time

2008-07-29T19:40:00.002+08:00

Don't really have time to blog cause I got alot of things to finished up tonight.

Goodbye Sleep, Hello midnight oil!!

Simulation II

2008-07-28T19:54:00.002+08:00

Ok.. Last time, like 1 sem ago. I did SBL with Rx.. And the case was on patient on respiratory distress. If I remembered correctly.

Today, I did it again with Azahar and Dandan with Baijing as the afternoon shift nurse and belinda as the relative. (We're on night)

Basically, before the thingy itself, was having diarrhea again!! Well for those who remembered, I have diarrhea too the previous time. And I was sort of scared not like the previous time.

Still remembered, the first one, Rx was like..

(9:04 PM) Catknight Sharke:
u know how to administer neb?
(9:05 PM) 我是雷诺尔:
nope
(9:06 PM) 我是雷诺尔:
shit, my skill book's at sch
(9:06 PM) Catknight Sharke:
then we dead
(9:06 PM) 我是雷诺尔:
nvm
(9:06 PM) Catknight Sharke:
by theory i should be able to
(9:06 PM) Catknight Sharke:
just havent practice that skill
(9:06 PM) 我是雷诺尔:
i go read up, maybe at least won't die a horrible death
(9:06 PM) 我是雷诺尔: im dead
(9:06 PM) Catknight Sharke:
nono
(9:06 PM) Catknight Sharke:
it's we dead
(9:07 PM) 我是雷诺尔:
hahah

SUNDAY, 18 November 2007
(all thanks to msn chat logs with all these remaining memories (: )

Then we spend sometime together on msn revising on the meds and all that. At least, somehow, I felt like more confident that time.

This time, even though i did spend some time reading and trying to like figure out to put on the ECG lead and read certain cardiac rhythm, I do feel slightly insecure.

In fact, just now, while doing the procedure itself, I do feel lost. Like don't know what to do. While Azahar is busy checking on the patient and Dandan trying to do the next course of action for the patient, I'm just lost?

Then while doing the resus thingy, some might realise, some might not. But I can't actually do the (30:2) cycle properly. Thus making azahar count with me.

I was distracted. Yup. Distracted.

Was thinking of that day. When we first learn airway management. Me, Aza and Rx were playing. Each took turn to be Nurse 1, Nurse 2 and Doctor. We were running amok trying to make the situation as real as possible in the meantime, making it fake and funny. Making jokes in between like, pretending to defib the wrong patient all that.

Those memories, just so clear. Like it suddenly flow back.

Sigh.. I really miss him alot. A whole lot.

Anyway,
thanks for those encouragement.
thanks sharon for the red pen and ashley for the scissors.

and sorry baox, linda, val and aza for being slightly weird during lunch. and whiney..

Be strong Sharke!!

Bad things keep coming, neverending

2008-07-25T17:27:00.003+08:00

Sigh..

I just failed my clinical prac exams. Feeling sucky about it.

Basically, I did super terribly badly on the procedure. The lecturer was not satisfy with my assessment portion. She says I cant wait and just to focus on the actual procedure itself. In fact, she stop me after I contaminate my gloves. Yup! Gloves. Due to natural reflex. The paper was dropping and my initial reaction was to like, catch it before it fall. But the thing is, I used my dominant hand.

Next week,

Monday, I got SBL. Volunteered in it again. I so dont feel like doing it anymore.

Thursday, got 2 ICAs. Haven't even finished them yet. Not forgetting the remedial and 2nd attempt for clinical.

Plus, I still contemplating on that issue. Dont know what to do.. I'm feeling so lost. No idea what to do. Should I??

I'm feeling pretty aimless now. I know I need to do this, do that but then just can't seems to be able to do them.

Feels like the bad things just keep on coming, while the good things just, stop?

Perhaps, I just need a hug to calm my soul down.

Thanks for the laugh (:

2008-07-25T01:11:00.002+08:00

When I'm down and out, feeling sad cause of the surrounding, cause of stress, just cause of the super god damn moody feeling, you never failed to make me laugh.

Haha..

Feeling so much better after opening that mail..

There's still someone who cares and it's great knowing there's someone who does.

Shall smile cause of that

(:

Is it wrong to stand in something I believe in?

2008-07-24T19:21:00.002+08:00

I am sad

I still miss him.. a whole lot

2008-07-24T01:12:00.003+08:00

I'm still awake at this hour trying to find some stuff to download.

Like last time, I dont even be like downloading them.. Rx will sort of be doing it for me. Like just a simple,

"You watch XXX already? Download leh I wan watch"

or

"That show classic sia.. You think can find on torrent?? Help me dwl la.."

or

"You play XXX before?? Fun not?? You dwl then you share la.."

and you will always be oblige to do it even those risk involve. and sometimes, Fi or some of the gals would start nagging at you for being such a bad influence providing me with games all that..

Remember ODEX? You were making such a big hoo haa about it. Cant download your favourite anime.. Like how stupid they're all that.

Can't seems to get to sleep. Been thinking..
About everything, like what's happening around.
Especially to like what's happening in school.

Well, I'm not blaming anybody. Not Fi, not anyone else. There's a reason why I choose not to attend or decided to go MIA.

FYI, I'm just not satisfied with the sculpture. For one simple reason. Just not convince that it will work out. And you said that we need to give comments and advice on how to suppose it work out. But, I did. And I find it's stupid. To tear up paper all that.

And dont get me wrong, I dont mind tearing those paper if you've told me the plan like why it's needed or why need to be cut or just a simple why it's going to be used for.

Why not, I tell you.

"You see those stacks of newspaper over there?? We need to burn them to make sculpture."

and that's the most I'm going to tell you. No diagrams, no visual idea, no explanation, nothing. How will you have feel?

If you've told me to do some other stuff, I might or in fact, do it. Like for example, the folding of cloth. I knew that we needed it so that PL mum can sew it easily. And it's needed for the maze. YES. I'll do it. Like storing everything inside the resource room nicely, yes, I'll do.

However, I must admit, I'm selfish. I just hated art and craft thats why I just dont bother to do. Afterall, your agenda is, to make the sculpture right? That's what I know of and were told of. And it's soo my weakness. I cant do precision glueing, cant draw perfect circles nor just draw something nice. And I dont really like that part of myself. So.. ya.

Sigh..

Just 12 days of school left. Is all this really really necessary??
I'm tired

Rx.. What would you have done??

So much for all that

2008-07-19T21:03:00.002+08:00

I finally clearly see it. Sort of not happy.

Why are they doing this?? Isn't she part of us?

You know wad, I'll join her. It's pointless sticking around with you all.

Bye fuckers. Thanks for not being appreciative

This is an interesting fact

2008-07-18T03:15:00.002+08:00

Pl tell me that the reason why I check my mail, friendster, facebook and other stuff in the middle of the night is due to

I miss someone???
I looking forward to an event??

wow.. somemore, she say that if I think hard enough, I might be able to know the answer..

Let me try thinking now..

*thinking

*thinking

dont know la.. if i want to remember then i will remember la..

I crack at my own jokes

2008-07-17T22:14:00.002+08:00

I dont know why, but I feeling so different about myself. As if some of my patterns are changing. I feel like I've open up so much more. Joke around so much and think of them so much instantly that sometimes, I crack at my own jokes. Definitely feels so much happier, but sometimes, I just felt weird of this thing.

Then yesterday, went to help out Baox, Linda and Val for their flea market stall. Not like they got alot of flea or anything, but they just want to sell stuff la. Considering that I didnt have much sleep before that, I'm amaze at how early I manage to wake up. Do all the stuff, and still manage to take a theory exam.

Dont know la.. I think I go study then sleep better. I need to study, I must study and I really need to study. Damn!

Love? Right..

2008-07-14T20:56:00.002+08:00

"When are you getting a girlfriend?" - Azahar to me

He have been constantly asking me this question, and my usual answer be like
"I'm just enjoying being single."

Oh well, the actual reason is I've just not found the right one. Call me picky or what but, I haven't really found anyone I could like really really click with. Someone I could laugh with, cry with, have fun with and basically just enjoy the motion of life with.

I knew that not everyone could take my blatant-ness or my crude jokes. I also knew that not every gal like to see an emotional guy. I do express my feelings alot and as a whole the way it is and the misconception of guys dont cry really is a misleading thing.

Even if I did find someone nice (which once awhile I did), something is always just not right somewhere. Either the girl is attached, just broke up, not ready for another relationship or just something, somewhere not right.

Maybe it's just a stupid curse I remembered telling my pri 5 art teacher, "Girls are just bad luck. We men dont need them."

Yea, for those wondering, I'm SINGLE baby.. Drop me a message if you're interested.

So Tired..

2008-07-12T12:06:00.003+08:00

Been having a hectic week..
But then again, a pretty fruitful one..

Went for the ms carnival on wed. Took part in the sudoku(again) and photohunt..
Pretty fun la.. Very long haven't play that much.

Exams are coming and I need to start studying. Actually I started la.. just that, not concentrating enough.

Just been distracted with stuff and wad not..

Left with 4 more weeks. 20 days of sch time. I going to miss everybody

Another wasted opportunity

2008-07-12T00:45:00.001+08:00

Shit la..

This is so fuck. Everytime like this

I sort of miss him

2008-07-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

Remember those days?

2008-06-29T23:01:00.003+08:00

Isn't it sad when people wants to forget to stop remembering. When those warm heart of theirs turn cold so that they will be emotionally stable.

Sch reopen? Got holiday meh?

2008-06-23T15:39:00.002+08:00

Today, sch finally like reopen. Like no diff like that cause been like so many go school on the 2 weeks "break".

This morning was having a closure for Rx. Feel so much better after that. Hope he have a safe journey to wherever he's heading.

Hmm..
Feel like going gym tmr but then my nose abit like no good. Hopefully tmr will be better.
Got to work this muscles of mine..

So many things I got to do or want to do.. Just cant find time. Shit.
Seriously, getting slightly irritated with this stupid hair of mine. I want go cut. Just cant decide yet on where to go and how to cut it. Must be looking like a maniac just now when a friend I bump into stare so hard as if I did something so terrible.

I feel like going shopping.. Ahh

Ok all this are random for I'm currently at home with nothing to do.

Time to sleep

Going back to life

2008-06-19T11:52:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of crying. My nose is in pain. My head feel pain. My eyes, just dont feel like my eyes.

Those 2 big blow really affected my life. I guess when it's time to let go, let it go.

Good luck gal..
and
Hope Rx will have a safe journey.

Getting back to life and realise i still got some stuff to finish up.

Be strong Sharke

RIP: Rui Xiang aka Fake Angmoh

2008-06-17T22:21:00.005+08:00

Dear rx,

It's been afew days since your funeral but I cant still accept that you're gone. It's just like last week that we were squabling and making damn loud noises in the library. Never expect our "gay" holding hands and hug during the last day of school to be our last.

Going to miss those moments where you'll share not legal stuff with me, you nagging at me whenever the gals complain about me and of course, you countlessly telling me to be nice to the gals.

It's sad that the only time I work with you was during our SBL. It felt just like yesterday where we will look at each other cause our patient was breathless and we dont even have a clue on what to do. Going to miss those time when I will sit in during your group meeting and you labeling me "corporate spy." Dont worry, this spy will try to help them if they need any.

I know that we did promise to do some stuff together but didnt actually manage to do them cause of lack of time. It's ok.

Thanks for coming into my life.
Thanks for being a brother, a role-model and a friend.
Thanks for those wonderful memories.

Hope we'll meet again.

Bye and take care.
You'll not be forgotten. For you've make a great impact in my life.

Love
Sharke

PS: Do visit when you've time. It's ok if you don't. I know that forever you'll say "ladies first." haha. Do visit them too. We miss you a whole lot.

I need a break

2008-06-16T08:25:00.002+08:00

Even though I appear strong, I'm crumbling inside.

The blow is just too much for me to handle. Trying to hold on but my hands are just slippering.

Argh..

TGIF

2008-05-30T06:53:00.003+08:00

Good morning world!!

such a wonderful nice cooling, rainy morning..

and first time this week I actually wake up early in the morning, way before my alarm rings.

all this due to the desirable urge to shit..

Plan something crazy while I was sitting in that golden seat..

Shall try later in school. If got chance..

Tata..

Love
Sharke

Low on dopamine

2008-05-28T21:16:00.003+08:00

I'm just feeling sucky..

This is soo fucked

Smooth like silk

2008-05-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

and I'm loving it..

lalalalalalala

Free Hugs

2008-05-20T19:48:00.008+08:00

Hugs are not only nice, they are needed.

Hugs can relieve pain and depression.

Make the healthier happier, and the most secure even more so.

Hugging feels good and overcomes fear.

It provides stretching exercise to short people and stooping exercise to tall
people.

Hugging does not upset the environment.

It saves heat and energy.

Requires no special equipment.

Hugging makes happy days happier and impossible days
possible.

Author Unknown

---------------------------------------------------------------

Lets start hugging each other and make this world a better place. Free hugs for everyone..

Recommended dosage, once per day..

*Hugs*

Sharke

Blank Shots

2008-05-13T07:10:00.002+08:00

Feel like blogging this morning but have no idea what to blog about..

Hmm.. Err.. I know.. Nehh.. Ahh Ahh.. Dont want la.. Arghh Nevermind..

Bye

I'm soo dead meat..

2008-05-08T18:13:00.003+08:00

Tmr is my practical exams..

I'm not prepared. Not yet ready. I have not even touch the eye dressin set.

Luckily yesterday theory exams can do...

Everyone is soo moody lately. Looking at them being moody, just make me go soo wrong. Why? Why?

What happen to those cute and bubbly girls?? Gone!! Gone!! They transformed into sulky, moody and irritated monster.. arghh

Cant be they having pms all at one go right?

Busy me

2008-05-03T13:37:00.003+08:00

Finally got time to update..

Been pretty busy lately

So many things to finish, so many events to plan and so many goals to accomplished..

And I got myself a new hobby. Thats cool. Hopefully this spark of inspiration and diligence will last long.

Sch reopen like 3 weeks ago. Already accomplished some of my goals and some of my new sem resolution is still going strong.

Last sem to work at it..
I dont know wad going to happen after this.. really no clue. It's either I work now or.. forever she's gone. It has been pretty pretty long..

She's always has been so close but yet so far.. I know I must do it. Not giving up yet. Not yet. Hope this works out someway, somehow..

Adious~

YEAR 3!! YEAR 3!! YEAR 3!!

2008-04-13T17:36:00.004+08:00

Fri

Me and YW went to buy our books. So, off to np then to nyp.
I'm so glad I pick nyp nursing. NP is just like too gloomy. I wore pink that day and guess wad, those np ppl like stare at me like one kind. I attracted just too much attention. But oh well, while YW was quieing for his books, I go walk arnd bio-ing chio bu. I wont say good la.. neither would I say bad.

Then off to NYP. Met up with lex, azahar and gang. Got freshie around. I saw green tag!! And one DT gal, damn cute. power sia. but then this year the nurses not that nice la..

Still remember the way i memorise pavlov classical conditioning

before conditioning

school --> study --> look at gals + slack

after conditioning

school --> look at gals + slack

ok la.. so much for gals. So the more I see, the more i know, I think I make the right choice.

That's it for now. I'm gone.. Got to act busy.

Last week & Next week. Nothing about this week

2008-04-07T20:53:00.003+08:00

Finally finish District Campfire. Oh well, it was sucky.

Reason being:

The firewoods are inferior stuff.
The MC are boring.
The only attraction is that chio bu rover. Thou shall not reveal her name here.

But then, it make me realise smth. I miss out in a couple of stuff lately in the persue of a diploma certificate.

Let's be a good guy and make a meaningful 3rd year resolution.

Thou shall open his books more.
Thou shall concentrate what's in the book and not what outside of it.
Thou shall spend more in lecture halls instead of the canteen.

But, let's not forget to socialise. Not forgetting to spend more time looking around at freshies and of course, other things. (:

Before I going off for another school term, I shall enjoy myself in KL this wed. Got to be fun. I hope.

Weird dreams..

2008-03-31T11:25:00.005+08:00

Been pretty "busy" lately. Late nights, early morning. Tiring.. Later on this week still got some shits to finish up.

Talking about sleep, I been having the same dreams over and over again. Like some tape recorder keep replaying in my brain. Maybe somewhere, somehow, somebody out there trying to tell me something? Weird

On a lighter note, I'm having such great fun..

Meowww~~~

I dont want to handle anymore kids.. Pretty Please

2008-03-15T09:13:00.003+08:00

I been having a boring attachment. Well.. the climax only comes when the CI comes to the ward. Feel like she could stab me anytime and kill me.

Well my bdae was like any other normal day. I got only ermm.. no presents. :( Nevermind la.. Expected it.

Let me just make a wish and pray it will come true. Want me to say?

Highlight --> Someone say bdae wishes cannot say out if not later wont come true. Anyway, why you so kpo?

After 1 week in KKH, the most boring /worst /dreadful attachment I ever done, I swear I wont do anymore paeds nursing after this attachment is done. Paeds is like so irritating and boring and the way I work, it's just not like me. But then, since I'm too free, I manage to like make my eyes roam around. That boy godsis is pretty.. Haha and yesterday the HO on call also. But then, the prettiest Dr still Dr Kat. LOLS. I dont think that's part of my learning guide.

Should try to curb my habits. Too much girl watching. Later might turn blind 1 day.

This weekend, got to finish up my medicine then go take a long long big nap. Mr Panda is back. Anyway, anyone want to go out and chill out or something? Getting abit groggy over here.. Hahs.

Me crawling back to bed.

See ya later
Adious~

Not feeling lucky..

2008-03-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

Yea. I'm not feeling lucky. Need a lucky charm badly.

This week:

Come late 4 out of 5 times for attachment. The NYP coodinator was making a big hoo-haa about it. Lucky in the end it settle with just a verbal warning. Come to think of it, it's not even really my fault. The stupid damn clock is like more then 10mins faster. How am I going to get to work on time like that? I hardly come early for work how can like that? I always on time one but not late.

After many many sleepless night during my holidays finishing up my work, just when I about to receive my cheque $$, my cheque bounce. YES! It bounce. Now I need to ask for another one. And to make it worst, I need the $$$ pretty urgently.

Now, I feeling so tired that I just feel like sleeping. But I cant. So many things to do, so little time.

Sian la.. how la? Tell me how?

And BTW, something scary happen just now. First time see the super sweet and super duper nice SN Elaine bitching about getting all fused up angry with someone. Wow.. Super crazy man. Good luck to the person who make her angry. But I think ahh.. my expert opinion says that she have every right to be angry.

Needa to go now. Sammy waiting for me in Scions.

Here we go again (:

2008-03-04T10:47:00.010+08:00

Time for attachment again..

1 week - CGH

2 weeks - KKH (paeds)

Back to that same old ward again. Some of the staff there do remember me. (maybe not many male nurses)

This time, instead of doing my attachment with the usual people, I'm doing it with the year ones. Still not close with them, maybe cause only 1 day? But overall, pretty fun cause no one to compete with me in doing all the other more advance stuff. So pretty much learn alot in just in 1 day. woots~~

Only first day but the CI given me and Juf homework which to be handed in on.. today? I must learn and understand G6PD. The only thing i know about it it something something glucose then something something happen. Never listen during bio class.. Didn't even attend in the first place. Hahas.. I think Juf need to know about ESRF. I think that's even more cheem.

I think I blog more next time.. need to finish up my homework.

And BTW.. if anyone tried to contact me or sms me, sorry never reply. My phone spoilt so try other means ok?

You can contact me @

msn/email - sharkenstein@gmail.com
or
house phone if I at home.

Lastly, I going to bold it and put it big big

7 more days

Life is good

2008-02-22T03:07:00.002+08:00

Life is good despite:

I screwed up my paeds paper badly.

I'm broke again.

I got and still having the runs.

I got too much time on my hand.

I'm living a no-lifer life.

Cause:

There's many pretty flower in that wonderful green garden.

I'm such a simple-minded person

Peacetime

2008-02-19T19:17:00.004+08:00

Last Friday, the day after valentine's day is Total Defence day.

After hearing the siren at noon, I went to take a look outside. Life is like per normal with no people going to hiding nor at least get their heads covered. Gone were the days where our forefathers pray hard that the Japanese planes won't be visiting their homes.

I've always wondered. If the sirens were to sound now, without any warning nor any pre-plan broadcast or anything, will anyone still go to hiding? For the first siren, I strongly believe the answer is NO.

I felt that that we Singaporean are taking peace for granted. We dare to sleep in trains, go out at 2am alone to get supper or just leave our things lieing around in the open. I admit I guilty of doing that too. Is this really ok? There are countless stories where Singaporean got mug in the train in the States. Or got bashed up in Malaysia.

Whose fault are those?

Is it cause of our Singaporean face? Why don't the locals didn't get that? Once again, I believe that it's our mentality that the world is a safe place to live in.

A friend of mine whom always go JB to pump his bike patrol nearly get his bike stolen last week. His locks have been tampered with. The only thing that left the theft need to do is to ride his bike away.

But, thankfully, a Singaporean who saw it prevent this from happening. His bike was save. I'm glad that the Singaporean spirit in us still have not died. Kudos the the couple who saved his bike for stepping up in a foreign country.

I shall end with saying that safety is not to be taken for granted. Not even in Singapore.

Low crimes doesn't means NO crimes - Your Neighbourhood policeman says that.

Missing? Maybe not..

2008-02-17T20:12:00.004+08:00

So far, i'm living a quiet life. Staying at home almost all the time. Only go out to buy food back to eat.

Almost 24/7 online though usually, only the common 1 or 2 people whom i chat with. My phone is almost useless. In fact, it's a tool for me to set my alarm. Not for me to make calls or sms since i receive none anyway..

Enjoying this kind of quiet life though it's lonely. Very lonely.

Well, cant have everything in life. But I think killing loneliness is a better thing then being lonely.

It's almost the end of feb. Everytime when it's the new year, I will silently pray hard that this year, I will kill Mr loneliness. Find someone to spend time with or something to do.

But every year, it just remain the same. Me being at home alone. Thinking whether to go out or not and with whom.

Though one of my friend did ask me to go school to mug together for exams, i feel lazy. Yea.. Lazy.. not lazy as in the kind where you will feel as if you dont want to do it. It's the kind where I will get everything prepared from ironing my clothes to packing my bag but before leaving I will be thinking.

Do I really want to go school? And then.. What's next? Study? Do I think I really will study there? No? Then do what? Play games? Look at girls? No? Then?

Many people thought I'm a sociable person but in fact, I don't think I am. I do make friends easily but I will find it hard to maintain it?

Last friday, I went to school to sit for my med surg paper. And the result is, I feel crappy inside. Not the kind of left out feeling but the feeling that something is missing. I have no clue what is missing but something inside, deep inside there's a gap to be filled in.

I still have not found it. That missing piece. Though I'm not in any hurry to find it, someone to spend time with and share happy and sad moments with will be good.

After my last serious failed attempt(that shorty gal), I dont really feel like trying seriously again. Not that I cant be bothered or anything but just afraid to fall into darkness again.

I dont want anymore of those days where I'll sleep the whole day wishing the next day will come and then the next and then the next. Not going into details for I dont want to remember anymore of those days.

So much for the bad side of being single. But on the good side, I got good news for myself.

I compared my hp bills with my bro. His sms sent is quad digit. While mine, is double. yea double. It didnt even reach 100. And since I'm at home most of the time and used the house phone to make calls, my hp bill is super super low. So my pocket now is super super fat.

Secondly, like I said, my pocket is fat. Though lex, if you're reading this, don't ask me about it. Wait for my "pathetic payday".

And there are many other great welfare around. So don't worry. Being single is good. I myself feeling good about being one. Think positive. And just let fate decide.

Alrite.. Running off to play more games.

imgone

Mugger Me!

2008-02-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

Ok.. I'm mugging like there's no tomorrow.. in fact, there's hardly any tmr anymore

Time to get a life.. But who cares?

Mugging is more fun then life..
I sound like a nerd LOL

Missing

2008-01-24T23:38:00.000+08:00

Where is that boy who looks forward to go to sch and attend class everyday?
Where is that boy who got goes to lecture even though he's not understanding them at all?
Where is that boy who stays late in sch flipping books trying to study as much as possible?

I'm so unmotivated now. I dont know why. Just dont feel like doing anything for the moment. Sigh..

Hope I get it back pretty soon. Exams coming.

Busy

2008-01-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

Just want to say hi to those reading this..

Sorry for not updating more. Busy weeks. Shall update more pretty soon.

Stay tune.

Thanks for coming (:

Breakdown

2008-01-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

First time,

First time in my nursing career I actually breakdown. After those fake smiles gone off.. Yea, I literally cried.

I dont mind you telling me I did nothing even though I did so.
I dont mind you scolding me if I did a mistake.

BUT

Can you dont do it infront of pts' and relative?
Not even my fault in the first place..

Infact, there's not even any to begin with.

It's not even time yet. And the pt's are eating. Why cant they eat finish first? A cup of milo and 2 slices of bread. 15 mins at most. is it too long to wait? NO.

Secondly,
I dont like mix ward. I dont like working on female pts.
Why must I do them? I never even touch any in the first place. I should not even be doing them in the first place. In fact, I was never allowed to.

I used to be ban from getting into a female's cubicle to do even parameters. I used to not be able to enter female isolation room. Now??
THEY DONT EVEN FUCKING CARE WHETHER IT'S OK FOR THEM OR NOT

Why? You think it's fun looking at their uncomfortable face? You think it's easy to focus when a gal reluctantly let you hold her arm so that you can finish your work? FYI, no.

So much for me not doing any work..
So,
who clean the shit on that pt when his diapers is soiled?
who change the pt out of his OT gown?
who ensure that the hourly para is up to date?

I'm not asking to take credits on what I've done. What I'm trying to say is that, I'm not a supernurse whom can finish everything without anyone's help. It's not possible for me to do everything. That's why, it's TEAM NURSING.

Enough said, I'm outta here. 3 full more weeks. 2 weeks before it's partially over.

Just getting it over and done with. Never want to go back there again. Never. That ward is a screwed up place.

Swollen eyes. Time to get some sleep.

Good bye 2007!! Hello 2008

2007-12-31T01:49:00.000+08:00

I shall do an early post..

The year is ending lets do some reflections ya..

This year..

Life
Been having a slacker's lifestyle this year. Especially in the early part of the year. Where I totally slack. Though I slack more in the ending part of the year but do more work. LOL
Dont really make sense but it's like that.

Pretty overall, pretty enjoyable lifestyle minus the holidays where I will get really really bored..

Love
Still single and available.

And is clever enough not to be so blinded by love. Once you really open up your eyes, you'll see people true's colour.

Much said, I'm still smitten by that sweet wide smile gal.

Career
Well, I'm still a student nurse. Dont find my own performance in the early part of the year satisfying. Though I've belief I've improve at the later end of the year.

School
Like I said, I'm still a student nurse. Therefore, my school is NYP. Still belongs there. Not yet kick out and doubt will ever kick out unless I failed badly. ~~I'm a good boy.~~ Took part in some competition even though I've never win any but for the fun of it, who cares. Refer more to Competition

Finance
I got my rich time when I was working every week and my super broke time like now when I didnt get allowence for 2 weeks like now. So you can safely says my networth is in negative value for the time being.

Scouting
Well didn't do much but there's a particular camp which I've enjoyed pretty much though it's more of helping out as a service scout.

That will be the minds camp. Just to see passionate people at work and the work they've done and are currently doing. Just so satisfying. Really satisfying.

Competition
Ultimately, I took part in 2.
Sudoku and Synergy. One is the brains while the other is the brawn. Both very fun. Willing to take part again next year if there's the opportunity. Just refer to my old post for those memories..

Sudoku
I think I taking this thing abit too seriously. Oh gosh.. I'm addicted to it. Serious. No kidding. Give me a puzzle and I wont put my pencil down till I've finished it.

I think thats about now..

Might be the last post of the year but definitely, I going to write up a new year resolution soon. Maybe tomorrow if got time? Hahas

Ja-ne

Good Morning!!

2007-12-29T10:01:00.001+08:00

Woke up early and realise that the house is empty. On the dining table there is my breakfast. Egg prata hotdog.. A quick sms from my mum deduce that it's my bro cook before going out.

hahas.. talking about having a creative art teacher in the house. Nevermind.. I'll just eat it.

And I have no plans for today.

Plan Cancel

2007-12-28T12:57:00.000+08:00

I'm just too lazy to go out for the time being.

School School School

2007-12-28T03:12:00.000+08:00

I'm going to school tmr to return a book. I will also be studying abit of medsurg. Currently have no plans at all on what to do after or before that.

So, date me out. Give me a call. LOL

Sleepless nights

2007-12-26T12:58:00.000+08:00

Taunt at Miao's place on Xmas night..

Didnt get to sleep, went home and still got work to do and only manage to get my sleep at 11am.

Then woke up at 2 continue playing.. hahs

Having a no lifer here and I'm so bored again..

Lonely

2007-12-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

I dont know wad this sudden feeling.. a feeling of loneliness. I know that I have been feeling lonely for quite some time but this time, it's feels different. It's like feeling worst than usual. This is actually making me feels crappy.

Last year, I've always believe that this year, would be different then any other year. A year where I wont be spending time alone during the holiday seasons. A year where I would be busy enjoying my holidays out of the house, having fun. A year unlike any other year, where I would share this season of sharing and giving with a special someone.

No.. It's not about me being single. Not about those gals around me. And no.. it's not about her. It's about just being able to spend my time out with people i trust and love.

Except for the occasional sms from my mum asking me where i am everytime i went out or the errands she wanted me to do, my phone seems quiet. In fact, too quiet.

Sometimes, I just stare at it wondering.. Does my phone even work anymore? I wish that is the case. I hope it's really because this old phone gave up on me. Not because I'm invisible and people dont really remember me thus contacting me is just another waste of time. I'm just not significant in their life.

I've wondered. Why is there such thing as holiday? Isnt it suppose to be when people can enjoy what they have done after what they done earlier on the year? Isnt it suppose to be fun? Isnt it suppose to be a time where you wake up feeling happy and refreshed looking ahead longing that this holiday wont end? Just like on tv where kids will be running out when it's the start of summer vacation?

For me, I dont find it this way. I find holiday torturous. Waking up in the morning feeling dull. Waking up in the morning, with all the time in the world knowing that.. i have nothing to do. Nothing at all. NOTHING!! NO PLANS, NOTHING!!

Argh.. I just hate this kind of lifestyle.

Just how I wish there's someone to talk with now.
Laughter to hear, smiles to see.
Let this wish come true for if it really happens, I'll be grateful.
I just want to be happy, forgetting this loneliness.

Nurse, that's what I want to be

2007-12-19T07:31:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, went for the class bbq. Baox didnt come. Told me she will appear but she didnt. Sick I guess..

Linda and me was like the top eater of the day. Just keep on eating and eating and eating. But how funny when going home time she the one who drag me out of the place while I was still munching to some chicken wings.

Ms Christine was there. She asked me why do I want to be a nurse. And my rating for enjoying nursing. Zero for dont like at all and ten for fully like.

I gave a 6. Used to be lower but now, I'm enjoying it. Well, Ms Haslinda afterall did woke me up after that last unmemorable attachment with her. On whether I really want to do this kind of job or not. Really make me think. Hope the next round of attachment, she will be around. For I want to show her, I've change.

Now, I want to be a nurse. A nurse that makes a difference. A nurse that cares.

School holidays started

2007-12-17T11:38:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling tired on a monday morning.

I just cant sleep. No matter what time I slept, I'm too used to waking up at 6 for school. I just cant go back to sleep.

How I wish there's something to look forward to everyday. Just something. Anything.

How I hated the holidays. To rest and go out?? How can I do both of them when school itself have taken part of my social life. Gain them back this next 2 weeks and only to lose them again when school reopens?

Currently listening to Yiruma piano pieces. Any idea where I can get his album? Would want to own 1. Cant seems to find any in sg.

Arghh I just hate mondays and holidays..

Monkey hit Monkey run

2007-12-16T11:46:00.000+08:00

My dad just hit a monkey at PIE this morning..

The monkey suddenly sprang out and my dad cant brake in time. And.. BANG. He got hit.

Daddy cant stop the car. Expressway somemore mid lane. So just move off slowly.

Manage to turn behind and see the monkey running..

Woo~~ It's not dead. Thank god..

After dad park the car, guess wad. The car plate and bumper got dented.. My mum and I was like thinking, is the monkey make of metal??

Power sia..

Ok thats all for today. If got any more interesting stuff I shall blog more but for now, I'm having a god damn boring holiday.

Ja-ne

Feeling Sucky

2007-12-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

Just dont feel like doing anything today.. maybe I'm tired??

Saw her a couple of times today but I just couldnt do it. Just not my style to rush things.
Let fate decide I guess..

I dont feel like going to class BBQ.. Maybe cause of the place?? I dont know.. So if I dont appear on tue, sorry to the person I got your name..

Talking about that, how I wish I know who got my name. So I can hint to her wad I want for Xmas is just a new Sudoku book. No need give me fancy stuff but I just want that.

And maybe some companion for this holidays..

Guess another holiday spending time alone. How boring..

To this special someone who've captured my heart:
I didnt manage to do it afterall. But I hope this half sem is just a beginning of something new. Pretty strange on how I only notice you only this sem even though you mix around with the only other gal I know before I entered NYP. Doing stuff never thought I would do like, going to school early just to get a glimpse of you and regaining my interest in re-doing outdoor stuff after seeing how active you are in ADC. Till we meet again or if you really happen to read this, (count myself lucky if you really do), do add me on msn. My email on the top right of my blog. I sure going to miss how you smile at me. Those sweet wide smile..

See ya around..

Ja-ne

Cells count this week

2007-12-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

Happy Cells - Goes DOWN
Sad Cells - Goes UP
Disappointed Cells - Goes UP
Dont know what to do with that teddy cells - Goes UP
Cant Wait for holiday to come cells Goes DOWN
(yea you seen it right, I'm not looking forward for holidays)

Basically, left 2 days of school.
I dont want holiday to come. It just meant..

Praying hard..
for a miracle to happen..
so that I could be with you..

Synergy!!

2007-12-09T00:34:00.000+08:00

Join the Nyp Synergy adventure race with Azahar. Better known in the race as The Slackerz

Firstly, hats off to the commitee members of Synergy Adventure Race. Can see that alot of logistic must be done and I will say, it's pretty well done.

Super duper fun.

We did:
1st CP: Sudoku challenge
When the countdown hit 0, we were like still standing there looking at each other cause we dont know where to run.. The rest all just run straight running blindly.. But they were right of course..

Basically just do sudoku with a twist. The puzzle is super hard that it's imposible to do them without clues. Where to find them? around the school la..

We actually been playing sudoku and even entered the sudoku competition. BUT I think we finished last for this CP.

Reason Being: We shared answer and the answer we got are wrong!! So got confuse along the way all that la..

And I found out there's a nice garden at the south side..

2nd CP: Walk/~~Jog/Run~~ to Seletar Reservoir and kayak
Yup while almost everybody is breathlessly jogging and runnning, we walk. Chat about stuff all that la..

When reach Seletar, suppose to kayak BUT we only got 1 pedal. SO Azahar being the fitter and me being the lighter and lazier, he kayak all the way. Moreover he got kayaking experience. Basically went pass quite alot of team there.. With little effort as we are seen singing along the way.. hahas!!

3rd CP: Water activites at NYP swimming pool
Well.. we suppose to go across and stop in the middle and memorise a picture or something then answer the question.

When I heard that, I was like shit!! firstly, our ziplog bag is torn. secondly, I cant see underwater..

But we dont want to forfeit the challenge so.. Just improvise on how to waterproof our passport and CHIONG AHH!!

And I dont even bother to stop cause I know I cant see.. and azahar also dont mind cause he said he'll remember all the stuff.. which he did. hahas.. Pretty breeze on that too..

4th CP:Archery
Like the name says it all, just aim and shoot. 3 arrow must hit the board. Got 5 shots MAX
I did the first 2 shots. Missed 1. (Maybe I need to start training my arms??) Caused the miss shot is based on my shivering arms. Well my next was pretty good though..

5th CP: Abseiling
Yup abseiling.. I did the belaying while Azahar did the abseiling itself. Pretty fast also cause he actually repel..

Chatted with George , Raine and some other nursing people.. Hahas They were like, if someone really fall, the first thing they do is..

All go run and call for help..

6th CP: Navigation
With upmost confident which attracted alot of attention during the race briefing we said we wanted to skip the Navigation Clinic..

However during the race day itself, something funny happen. I mistook the red needle for South and we were like telling the marshal that his paper is wrong. Funny sia..

We just did 4 anyway..but 2 were wrong and since we make friends with 2 other guys from SBM, we just basically copy la..

7th CP: Balloon Blowing
Basically just blow and write the sponsor name on it. Pretty boring for a last CP..

Last CP: Finishing line
When we 're walking back slowly to the finishing line, we decided to wait for the 2 guys who helped up at the Navigations.. So we stop right before going up the stairs. and wait for them to finish their 7th CP.

And tadah.. the 4 of us finish the race together.. I have no idea how long we took to finish the race or wads our standing in the race but ultimately, we have fun.. Making new friends along the way and basically exploring new things and places..

Would join again if there's a next time..

And ya.. She is indeed sweet. Crushes Crushes.. 1more week in sch for me to see her till perhaps exams..? Different attachment period. How sad..

Need to sleep for now.. Got work tmr morning and i need to be there at 10. I going to be a zombie man..

Exams

2007-12-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

Bio tomorrow..

NO stress.. Just go in and get ready to start shading. Not hoping to score for that paper.

For those who know, I'm a bio legend. Never got anything above D+ before and taken 2 supp paper for this module.

And also one of the 4 to have failed last sem practical.

We shall see my result next week. Hmm..

And SHIT I lost my eraser.. need to buy one tmr. Hope somebody remind me.

For now, bed time. my eyes pain. As if somebody just punched me in the eye.

Hmm..

Sudoku-ing

2007-12-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

I'm officially addicted to this now..

Didnt even realise that she's there.. (Usually, she wont escape my radar when she is like within view) but yesterday, too focused on this thing..

Then today, I didnt even realise cat was sitting a few tables infront of me. If I know, I would have gone over and talk to her instead of dabbling with this numbers.

Cant be blame la.. simply too addictive. Just keep continue even though I'm mentally exhausted.

Yea.. I'm suffering from mental fatigue.

So I need rest but I think, now I do..

You know.. (one-two-three-four-five-six-seven-eight-nine)

Bio and me..

2007-12-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

I know I'm very bad at bio.
I know I did not attend almost 50 percent of the lectures.
I know that I have never actually pass bio as a subject itself.

But

Dont worry..
I will do it this time.

Studying is my job and bio is part of the job scope.

I will do it this time round. For I dont want to lose this time.

I found what I wanted and if I need to accomplish any obstacle to obtain it, I will do it. Even if this is one of them.

All the best for Bio prac!

and if you wanted to study offline with me, feel free to call me. or just come down tmr at JE library. Me and Lex will be there.

Let the mugging begin!!

Psychos and Bios

2007-11-29T08:55:00.000+08:00

I'm goin psycho as my bios prac comming next week.

and guess wad, I think the only thing I know about endocrine system is:

It begins with the letter E and end with the letter E.

as for Psycho, I think I going psycho for attracting too much attention in lectures..

It's good to be answering questions but not all of them..

and for the love of psychos, for you mini psychos who wan help from this psycho, feel free to ask this psycho to psycho you to understand and enjoy getting psycho..

In return, why dont you psycho me to study Bio with you.. that will be a great deal.

ooopss..

I told lex I go school early to give him moral support for Prac test.. and I think I late..

See you all later..

Hopefully