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I shall do an early post..

The year is ending lets do some reflections ya..

This year..

Life
Been having a slacker's lifestyle this year. Especially in the early part of the year. Where I totally slack. Though I slack more in the ending part of the year but do more work. LOL
Dont really make sense but it's like that.

Pretty overall, pretty enjoyable lifestyle minus the holidays where I will get really really bored..

Love
Still single and available.

And is clever enough not to be so blinded by love. Once you really open up your eyes, you'll see people true's colour.

Much said, I'm still smitten by that sweet wide smile gal.

Career
Well, I'm still a student nurse. Dont find my own performance in the early part of the year satisfying. Though I've belief I've improve at the later end of the year.

School
Like I said, I'm still a student nurse. Therefore, my school is NYP. Still belongs there. Not yet kick out and doubt will ever kick out unless I failed badly. I'm a good boy. Took part in some competition even though I've never win any but for the fun of it, who cares. Refer more to Competition

Finance
I got my rich time when I was working every week and my super broke time like now when I didnt get allowence for 2 weeks like now. So you can safely says my networth is in negative value for the time being.

Scouting
Well didn't do much but there's a particular camp which I've enjoyed pretty much though it's more of helping out as a service scout.

That will be the minds camp. Just to see passionate people at work and the work they've done and are currently doing. Just so satisfying. Really satisfying.

Competition
Ultimately, I took part in 2.
Sudoku and Synergy. One is the brains while the other is the brawn. Both very fun. Willing to take part again next year if there's the opportunity. Just refer to my old post for those memories..

Sudoku
I think I taking this thing abit too seriously. Oh gosh.. I'm addicted to it. Serious. No kidding. Give me a puzzle and I wont put my pencil down till I've finished it.

I think thats about now..

Might be the last post of the year but definitely, I going to write up a new year resolution soon. Maybe tomorrow if got time? Hahas

Ja-ne

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1:49 AM

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Woke up early and realise that the house is empty. On the dining table there is my breakfast. Egg prata hotdog.. A quick sms from my mum deduce that it's my bro cook before going out.

hahas.. talking about having a creative art teacher in the house. Nevermind.. I'll just eat it.

And I have no plans for today.

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10:01 AM

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I'm just too lazy to go out for the time being.

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12:57 PM

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I'm going to school tmr to return a book. I will also be studying abit of medsurg. Currently have no plans at all on what to do after or before that.

So, date me out. Give me a call. LOL

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3:12 AM

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Taunt at Miao's place on Xmas night..

Didnt get to sleep, went home and still got work to do and only manage to get my sleep at 11am.

Then woke up at 2 continue playing.. hahs

Having a no lifer here and I'm so bored again..

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12:58 PM

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I dont know wad this sudden feeling.. a feeling of loneliness. I know that I have been feeling lonely for quite some time but this time, it's feels different. It's like feeling worst than usual. This is actually making me feels crappy.

Last year, I've always believe that this year, would be different then any other year. A year where I wont be spending time alone during the holiday seasons. A year where I would be busy enjoying my holidays out of the house, having fun. A year unlike any other year, where I would share this season of sharing and giving with a special someone.

No.. It's not about me being single. Not about those gals around me. And no.. it's not about her. It's about just being able to spend my time out with people i trust and love.

Except for the occasional sms from my mum asking me where i am everytime i went out or the errands she wanted me to do, my phone seems quiet. In fact, too quiet.

Sometimes, I just stare at it wondering.. Does my phone even work anymore? I wish that is the case. I hope it's really because this old phone gave up on me. Not because I'm invisible and people dont really remember me thus contacting me is just another waste of time. I'm just not significant in their life.

I've wondered. Why is there such thing as holiday? Isnt it suppose to be when people can enjoy what they have done after what they done earlier on the year? Isnt it suppose to be fun? Isnt it suppose to be a time where you wake up feeling happy and refreshed looking ahead longing that this holiday wont end? Just like on tv where kids will be running out when it's the start of summer vacation?

For me, I dont find it this way. I find holiday torturous. Waking up in the morning feeling dull. Waking up in the morning, with all the time in the world knowing that.. i have nothing to do. Nothing at all. NOTHING!! NO PLANS, NOTHING!!

Argh.. I just hate this kind of lifestyle.

Just how I wish there's someone to talk with now.
Laughter to hear, smiles to see.
Let this wish come true for if it really happens, I'll be grateful.
I just want to be happy, forgetting this loneliness.

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12:13 AM

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Yesterday, went for the class bbq. Baox didnt come. Told me she will appear but she didnt. Sick I guess..

Linda and me was like the top eater of the day. Just keep on eating and eating and eating. But how funny when going home time she the one who drag me out of the place while I was still munching to some chicken wings.

Ms Christine was there. She asked me why do I want to be a nurse. And my rating for enjoying nursing. Zero for dont like at all and ten for fully like.

I gave a 6. Used to be lower but now, I'm enjoying it. Well, Ms Haslinda afterall did woke me up after that last unmemorable attachment with her. On whether I really want to do this kind of job or not. Really make me think. Hope the next round of attachment, she will be around. For I want to show her, I've change.

Now, I want to be a nurse. A nurse that makes a difference. A nurse that cares.

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7:31 AM

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I'm feeling tired on a monday morning.

I just cant sleep. No matter what time I slept, I'm too used to waking up at 6 for school. I just cant go back to sleep.

How I wish there's something to look forward to everyday. Just something. Anything.

How I hated the holidays. To rest and go out?? How can I do both of them when school itself have taken part of my social life. Gain them back this next 2 weeks and only to lose them again when school reopens?

Currently listening to Yiruma piano pieces. Any idea where I can get his album? Would want to own 1. Cant seems to find any in sg.


Arghh I just hate mondays and holidays..

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11:38 AM

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11:46 AM

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Just dont feel like doing anything today.. maybe I'm tired??

Saw her a couple of times today but I just couldnt do it. Just not my style to rush things.
Let fate decide I guess..

I dont feel like going to class BBQ.. Maybe cause of the place?? I dont know.. So if I dont appear on tue, sorry to the person I got your name..

Talking about that, how I wish I know who got my name. So I can hint to her wad I want for Xmas is just a new Sudoku book. No need give me fancy stuff but I just want that.

And maybe some companion for this holidays..

Guess another holiday spending time alone. How boring..

To this special someone who've captured my heart:
I didnt manage to do it afterall. But I hope this half sem is just a beginning of something new. Pretty strange on how I only notice you only this sem even though you mix around with the only other gal I know before I entered NYP. Doing stuff never thought I would do like, going to school early just to get a glimpse of you and regaining my interest in re-doing outdoor stuff after seeing how active you are in ADC. Till we meet again or if you really happen to read this, (count myself lucky if you really do), do add me on msn. My email on the top right of my blog. I sure going to miss how you smile at me. Those sweet wide smile..

See ya around..

Ja-ne

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11:28 PM

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Happy Cells - Goes DOWN
Sad Cells - Goes UP
Disappointed Cells - Goes UP
Dont know what to do with that teddy cells - Goes UP
Cant Wait for holiday to come cells Goes DOWN
(yea you seen it right, I'm not looking forward for holidays)

Basically, left 2 days of school.
I dont want holiday to come. It just meant..

Praying hard..
for a miracle to happen..
so that I could be with you..

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11:57 PM

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Join the Nyp Synergy adventure race with Azahar. Better known in the race as The Slackerz

Firstly, hats off to the commitee members of Synergy Adventure Race. Can see that alot of logistic must be done and I will say, it's pretty well done.

Super duper fun.

We did:
1st CP: Sudoku challenge
When the countdown hit 0, we were like still standing there looking at each other cause we dont know where to run.. The rest all just run straight running blindly.. But they were right of course..

Basically just do sudoku with a twist. The puzzle is super hard that it's imposible to do them without clues. Where to find them? around the school la..

We actually been playing sudoku and even entered the sudoku competition. BUT I think we finished last for this CP.

Reason Being: We shared answer and the answer we got are wrong!! So got confuse along the way all that la..

And I found out there's a nice garden at the south side..

2nd CP: Walk/Jog/Run to Seletar Reservoir and kayak
Yup while almost everybody is breathlessly jogging and runnning, we walk. Chat about stuff all that la..

When reach Seletar, suppose to kayak BUT we only got 1 pedal. SO Azahar being the fitter and me being the lighter and lazier, he kayak all the way. Moreover he got kayaking experience. Basically went pass quite alot of team there.. With little effort as we are seen singing along the way.. hahas!!

3rd CP: Water activites at NYP swimming pool
Well.. we suppose to go across and stop in the middle and memorise a picture or something then answer the question.

When I heard that, I was like shit!! firstly, our ziplog bag is torn. secondly, I cant see underwater..

But we dont want to forfeit the challenge so.. Just improvise on how to waterproof our passport and CHIONG AHH!!

And I dont even bother to stop cause I know I cant see.. and azahar also dont mind cause he said he'll remember all the stuff.. which he did. hahas.. Pretty breeze on that too..

4th CP:Archery
Like the name says it all, just aim and shoot. 3 arrow must hit the board. Got 5 shots MAX
I did the first 2 shots. Missed 1. (Maybe I need to start training my arms??) Caused the miss shot is based on my shivering arms. Well my next was pretty good though..

5th CP: Abseiling
Yup abseiling.. I did the belaying while Azahar did the abseiling itself. Pretty fast also cause he actually repel..

Chatted with George , Raine and some other nursing people.. Hahas They were like, if someone really fall, the first thing they do is..


All go run and call for help..

6th CP: Navigation
With upmost confident which attracted alot of attention during the race briefing we said we wanted to skip the Navigation Clinic..

However during the race day itself, something funny happen. I mistook the red needle for South and we were like telling the marshal that his paper is wrong. Funny sia..

We just did 4 anyway..but 2 were wrong and since we make friends with 2 other guys from SBM, we just basically copy la..

7th CP: Balloon Blowing
Basically just blow and write the sponsor name on it. Pretty boring for a last CP..

Last CP: Finishing line
When we 're walking back slowly to the finishing line, we decided to wait for the 2 guys who helped up at the Navigations.. So we stop right before going up the stairs. and wait for them to finish their 7th CP.

And tadah.. the 4 of us finish the race together.. I have no idea how long we took to finish the race or wads our standing in the race but ultimately, we have fun.. Making new friends along the way and basically exploring new things and places..

Would join again if there's a next time..

And ya.. She is indeed sweet. Crushes Crushes.. 1more week in sch for me to see her till perhaps exams..? Different attachment period. How sad..

Need to sleep for now.. Got work tmr morning and i need to be there at 10. I going to be a zombie man..

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12:34 AM

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Bio tomorrow..

NO stress.. Just go in and get ready to start shading. Not hoping to score for that paper.

For those who know, I'm a bio legend. Never got anything above D+ before and taken 2 supp paper for this module.

And also one of the 4 to have failed last sem practical.

We shall see my result next week. Hmm..

And SHIT I lost my eraser.. need to buy one tmr. Hope somebody remind me.

For now, bed time. my eyes pain. As if somebody just punched me in the eye.

Hmm..

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11:07 PM

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I'm officially addicted to this now..

Didnt even realise that she's there.. (Usually, she wont escape my radar when she is like within view) but yesterday, too focused on this thing..

Then today, I didnt even realise cat was sitting a few tables infront of me. If I know, I would have gone over and talk to her instead of dabbling with this numbers.

Cant be blame la.. simply too addictive. Just keep continue even though I'm mentally exhausted.

Yea.. I'm suffering from mental fatigue.

So I need rest but I think, now I do..

You know.. (one-two-three-four-five-six-seven-eight-nine)

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11:37 PM

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I know I'm very bad at bio.
I know I did not attend almost 50 percent of the lectures.
I know that I have never actually pass bio as a subject itself.

But

Dont worry..
I will do it this time.

Studying is my job and bio is part of the job scope.

I will do it this time round. For I dont want to lose this time.

I found what I wanted and if I need to accomplish any obstacle to obtain it, I will do it. Even if this is one of them.

All the best for Bio prac!

and if you wanted to study offline with me, feel free to call me. or just come down tmr at JE library. Me and Lex will be there.

Let the mugging begin!!

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10:50 PM

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