Life is good despite:
I screwed up my paeds paper badly.
I'm broke again.
I got and still having the runs.
I got too much time on my hand.
I'm living a no-lifer life.
Cause:
There's many pretty flower in that wonderful green garden.
I'm such a simple-minded person
/Hopped!
3:07 AM
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Last Friday, the day after valentine's day is Total Defence day.
After hearing the siren at noon, I went to take a look outside. Life is like per normal with no people going to hiding nor at least get their heads covered. Gone were the days where our forefathers pray hard that the Japanese planes won't be visiting their homes.
I've always wondered. If the sirens were to sound now, without any warning nor any pre-plan broadcast or anything, will anyone still go to hiding? For the first siren, I strongly believe the answer is NO.
I felt that that we Singaporean are taking peace for granted. We dare to sleep in trains, go out at 2am alone to get supper or just leave our things lieing around in the open. I admit I guilty of doing that too. Is this really ok? There are countless stories where Singaporean got mug in the train in the States. Or got bashed up in Malaysia.
Whose fault are those?
Is it cause of our Singaporean face? Why don't the locals didn't get that? Once again, I believe that it's our mentality that the world is a safe place to live in.
A friend of mine whom always go JB to pump his bike patrol nearly get his bike stolen last week. His locks have been tampered with. The only thing that left the theft need to do is to ride his bike away.
But, thankfully, a Singaporean who saw it prevent this from happening. His bike was save. I'm glad that the Singaporean spirit in us still have not died. Kudos the the couple who saved his bike for stepping up in a foreign country.
I shall end with saying that safety is not to be taken for granted. Not even in Singapore.
Low crimes doesn't means NO crimes - Your Neighbourhood policeman says that.
/Hopped!
7:17 PM
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Missing? Maybe not.. / 17.2.08
So far, i'm living a quiet life. Staying at home almost all the time. Only go out to buy food back to eat.
Almost 24/7 online though usually, only the common 1 or 2 people whom i chat with. My phone is almost useless. In fact, it's a tool for me to set my alarm. Not for me to make calls or sms since i receive none anyway..
Enjoying this kind of quiet life though it's lonely. Very lonely.
Well, cant have everything in life. But I think killing loneliness is a better thing then being lonely.
It's almost the end of feb. Everytime when it's the new year, I will silently pray hard that this year, I will kill Mr loneliness. Find someone to spend time with or something to do.
But every year, it just remain the same. Me being at home alone. Thinking whether to go out or not and with whom.
Though one of my friend did ask me to go school to mug together for exams, i feel lazy. Yea.. Lazy.. not lazy as in the kind where you will feel as if you dont want to do it. It's the kind where I will get everything prepared from ironing my clothes to packing my bag but before leaving I will be thinking.
Do I really want to go school? And then.. What's next? Study? Do I think I really will study there? No? Then do what? Play games? Look at girls? No? Then?
Many people thought I'm a sociable person but in fact, I don't think I am. I do make friends easily but I will find it hard to maintain it?
Last friday, I went to school to sit for my med surg paper. And the result is, I feel crappy inside. Not the kind of left out feeling but the feeling that something is missing. I have no clue what is missing but something inside, deep inside there's a gap to be filled in.
I still have not found it. That missing piece. Though I'm not in any hurry to find it, someone to spend time with and share happy and sad moments with will be good.
After my last serious failed attempt(that shorty gal), I dont really feel like trying seriously again. Not that I cant be bothered or anything but just afraid to fall into darkness again.
I dont want anymore of those days where I'll sleep the whole day wishing the next day will come and then the next and then the next. Not going into details for I dont want to remember anymore of those days.
So much for the bad side of being single. But on the good side, I got good news for myself.
I compared my hp bills with my bro. His sms sent is quad digit. While mine, is double. yea double. It didnt even reach 100. And since I'm at home most of the time and used the house phone to make calls, my hp bill is super super low. So my pocket now is super super fat.
Secondly, like I said, my pocket is fat. Though lex, if you're reading this, don't ask me about it. Wait for my "pathetic payday".
And there are many other great welfare around. So don't worry. Being single is good. I myself feeling good about being one. Think positive. And just let fate decide.
Alrite.. Running off to play more games.
imgone
/Hopped!
8:12 PM
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Ok.. I'm mugging like there's no tomorrow.. in fact, there's hardly any tmr anymore
Time to get a life.. But who cares?
Mugging is more fun then life..
I sound like a nerd LOL
/Hopped!
8:50 PM
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